Is it September yet?

Is it September yet?

I was doing pretty well for the last couple weeks but now I just feel anxious and want to get this going!! I am trying not to think about it yet I need to read everything I have been given and I research like mad when i do *anything* from buying a toaster to well... IVF. And obviously the more important it is, the more I research! But research just makes me want to do it NOW!

I started a binder and I think that's what threw me over the edge. I want everything in one place so I have all the paperwork we have so far there. And apparently I will be getting things like lab envelopes and such so they will go in there. I am hoping that once I get the trial xfer done I will get the calendar and such plus we get the rx plan and scripts.

Lab results so far...

So normally I go to Palo Alto Medical Foundation for care and labs. Last labs that freaked me out, I went to Quest Diagnostic.
So I re-did the labs and granted it was done on CD 2, that wouldn't make up for the difference!
Estradiol    44
FSH 7.4
LH    6.4
Prolactin    4.3
TSH    1.56

I haven't gotten my AMH back yet.... But WTF?! Quest had my FSH at 9.7!
I am relieved but like my IVF nurse said, it doesn't matter that much now. But when I wasn;'t sure about IVF is damn well f*&^ing mattered! I was freaking out. And now I am sucking down enough pills to kill a horse!
I am staying on the supplements until the cycle actually starts but I admit I am annoyed with Quest. They are unorganized and I feel icky when I got there, but I thought none of that mattered if the results were accurate. And EVERYTHING was off from my last PAMF results to the current result whereas the PAMF results are consistent. I am curious to see the AMH tomorrow...

Pill Popper

I feel robbed! I wanted the cool little pink case for my BCP that you see in the movies! Instead I get an ugly blue pouch?! WTF? LOL!

ya those are my supplements. I will have to get off most when we start stimming but for now they actually make me feel better. And normally vitamins and supplements  don't make me feel any different. Granted I am on like 15 of them so of course I have no idea which one/s are doing it *rolleyes*

Oh and was emailed today and told I will get my calendar at the trial transfer. Sigh, I hate waiting!

And finally here we go...

AF finally arrived at 22dpo! Whew! I feel better emotionally... errr... hormonally? Not 100% but better. I just don;t think that's good for your body. I used to go months without a cycle but I didn;t O until later and had a normally LP.. Sitting weeks and weeks with a long LP is torture. I felt like it was 2 weeks of PMSing and I rarely PMS!
Anyway, braved traffic today to get all my lovely testing done and I start BCP tonight. Funny I am using BCP for the first time in my life! Not only am I doing so at the age of 36yo but doing it to GET pregnant! I like to do things back-assward I guess :D

I want my results already LOL!
Oh and I guess they haven;t completed the IVF calendars yet as they are working with August transfer patients! arg! I want my damn calendar! LOL!
BUT I do have my  trial transfer, antral follicle count appointment on July 25th- a day before my polyp removal. Fun week eh? :D

Still waiting

I am still waiting for AF and I swear this is the WORST PMS ever. I am grouchy and have so much to say to pouty people who need to stop being so narcissistic.

EVERYONE has a story and you don't even know HALF of it. Stop comparing, stop complaining and maybe you life wouldn't suck so much.

I don't care what you have been through, 

PMSing, I think.

I don't normally PMS but I feel so angry today and grouchy. Not sure if it's PMS, but I am crampy. But it also could be me stressed out. last night I woke hearing "cats" fighting. I ran outside yelling and clapping my hands. It stopped and my youngest cat went running to the back. I walked forward trying to see who he fought with and a raccoon ran up the pergola to the roof. I haven't seen my cat since :( I am angry at myself for not taking care of the raccoon earlier. We called an exterminator who traps them but I guess California state laws says they must put them down after capture so we canceled. But at that point they had not attacked any of the cats... Now I am not sure how to feel :( We are vegans and vegetarians so killing an animal is not considered. But if the animal is attacking other animals what do we do?
Anyway, So the IVF is on my mind too. I am still waiting on AF, Love the progesterone delay *rolleyes* I think I took the last pill at 11dpo and I am 17dpo now. My body just loves the stuff I guess :p I need to find my BCP script because I do think AF is coming... I am supposed to do my labs CD2 and start the BCP but I don;t think that will work. If I start in the next 24 hours the lab will be closed CD2 so I guess I will have to delay BCP another day. Hope that doesn't screw anything up.
Got the remaining bill for the IVF in the mail. Isn't horrible but doesn't include meds so... I am hoping what Fertility Lines said is true and 75% is covered on them. We will see soon enough!

I guess no one ever thinks they will get to the IVF point. It's so surreal. I NEVER thought i would do IVF. Even if that meant yearning forever for another child. I thank God JM came into my life and made IVF so much less of a taboo for me and less scary. I just am grieving a bit that we have to go this far but also thankful we can.
I just pray to God it works as we get the money together.

Rescheduled surgery

I got an email this weekend with an appointment reminder for today which I didn't know I had. Apparently it was my pre-op and I didn't even know they booked it! arg! And she is out of town all next week so I had to reschedule my 7/8 surgery for 7/26. I am kinda of relieved but I know I need to get it done. And I didn't realize how much more involved it seems to be. I also have to have a phone consult with a surgery nurse along with the pre-op. It's making it sounds like actual surgery and I hate that idea. Funny thing is that it's not the surgery but the anesthesia that freaks me out. I throw up so much after it's ridiculous.
I thought I would maybe get something to make me sleepy and it would be done in office not at the hospital *sigh* oh well! if it gets me my baby it's worth it! ;)

I think I am out this cycle but I will write more on that when I know what to say.