Stims DAY ELEVEN

So let's get to the nity gritty and then I will babble ;)
So I have 28 follicles like they had said last week but they separated in size. One group of 12-14 are ready 18-20mm) and the other group is 11-13mm. But my Estrodial levels look good today :) Yesterdays was 1600 but todays was 3000 so we trigger tonight! I took my last stim this morning!
I took Ganirelix tonight at 8pm, I take trigger tonight (and since my E2 wasn't horribly high I don't need to Lupron trigger) of 10,000 HCG at 11pm tonight for the ER at 11am Thursday :)

Physically- Heartburn is GONE! OMG THANK GOD! It had to be the ABX! I normally have a stomach of steel but I did NOT handle those antibiotics at all! it was horrible! 3 days of heartburn, bleh!
My boobs HURT today, holy hell! They are fine as long as I leave them alone and don't nudge them, touch them, get near them...
Bloating and cramps... If I wasn't an acupuncture believer before I AM NOW! So after my acupuncture appointment my bloating went down. But then it didn't come back... So much that I was afraid I O'ed and that the scan would say everything is gone! I was actually nervous because I felt so good! But obviously there is plenty of going on in there! My ovaries look pretty darn big! But even today and tonight I feel pretty normal! I look a bit bloated but don't really feel it and I am not achy and yucky like I have been- it's AWESOME! I am thinking the shoe will drop and I will be feeling it before the ER on Thursday! LOL! But until then I am doing well!

Emotionally I think it's taking a bit of a toll. I took a nap today and felt off after because of a dream... I think everything kinda hit me. I am a control freak and the hardest thing for me is to not to have control and SO many variables! So much could go wrong and I am trying not to focus on that. So far I have been doing great BUT I think it's getting to me. Feeling better though tonight thankfully :)

Tomorrow I need to get work done... I don't want to have to stress about it after the ER or next week after the transfer. I am also going to try and de-stess and mentally prepare for Thursday morning!

Stims DAY EIGHT

Today was my first not so good day but wasn't phsyical and I am focusing on the fact that things could be FAR worse for us.
I will start with the bad: My meds weren't delivered yesterday!! OMFG!!! So I had a scan today and figured I would not panic and we would see what Dr. H had to say. He called in an RX and it didn't seem like it would be a huge deal. We did have to drive another 20 minutes north (and our clinic is already 45 miles north) but no biggie right? Well when we got to Walgreens things got bad. We were supposed to get 4 Menopur vials and a cartridge of Follistim and it would cost us $3000!! We have some insurance coverage but they didn't take our insurance. I realized we only needed the Menopur so that dropped it to $600, much better. But still I am angry we have to pay OOP because they screwed up. The IVF coordinator on-call spoke with someone at the pharmacy emergency number and said they are going to try to fix this. I hope so! But even if it doesn't, life could be worse right?

On to the good...
Had the can and it looks like we have "at least" 15 on one side and 11 on the other measuring 11-13mm! DH and I disagree which side but I think the 11 is on the right ;)
We upped the Follistim to 350 and we started the Ganirelix tonight! Um prepacked? Um yay!!
Physically today was harder. I woke with heartburn type pain and it's been on an off all day and night. Tums isn't helping :( I am not sure it's the meds but I have never had this before. It might be the antibiotics maybe? Thankkfully we are almost done with those!! I am hoping that's what it is and when I stop them I will feel better.
Exercise was more difficult today. I got more swollen again and worse. I tried using hand weights but I felt like it was making my lower stomach heavier and ached. I don't know... I may have to just start walking now :/ 
I forgot to mention the headache thing has been on an off for days. It's not horrible but annoying and I have faced it is most likely a side effect of the medications instead of a coincidence.The bloat is bothersome but not horrible yet. I do feel heavy around my uterus and oddly enough my pubic area will start aching (??).
So things are going great! I thought I would go fast and have less quality follicles but it looks like my body is baking these eggs well :)
I go back Monday for another scan. We are not sure yet but we are thinking trigger Tuesday or Wednesday and retrieval Thursday or Friday! :)

Stims DAY FIVE

Wowser I could NOT stop eating today! uhg! I hope it doesn't keep going like this! I ate well but A LOT!

Anyway, had my scan today with Dr. Harris. Have I mentioned how much I love him? So I have 12 growing on the right and 11 on the left. They are still on the smaller side so he upped my follistim to 275. I hadn't taken the morning dose yet so we started the higher dose today. The Menopur is to remain the same at 150. I go back Saturday morning for the next scan. No word on my labs so I guess they were normal. I emailed and requested the numbers. I want to know everything.
Tomorrow I have to be a big girl and do my own injection prep! I have been spoiled and DH gets everything ready. It makes this process so much easier and makes me really feel like we are a team <3 I am so glad it has worked out this way. But he can't do it tomorrow morning tho so I am going to have to do it alone. I have to do two injections because the cartage won't have enough one- fun fun. The injections are still not bad but the thigh seems to sting more than the belly so I think I am switching back to the stomach. The problem is that my belly bruises where my thigh doesn't. Go figure. I am not planning on wearing a bikini again this season so i think I am good ;)

Emotionally today I lost a little bit of my Zen. Wasn't as relaxed but still ok. Didn't help there was a TON of traffic today. Luckily I have acupuncture tomorrow just to center myself. I took a long bath tonight that was nice. I am really trying to be as clam as possible and to celebrate this process as much as I can so I bought myself flowers today:

Dh helped pick them out so that counts for something right? :p
Speaking of.... I think DH is having hormonal side effects from the medication. What's that you say? Dh isn't ON the medications *I* am? Well he was certainly Mr. Grumpy Pants this morning :P I only mention it because he reads this LOL! He really is awesome but doesn't do well without his beauty sleep! He's no longer allowed to stay up the night before we have an appointment :p

Overall things are still going really well. Bloated and cramping but not horrible. Working out seems to make it worse which is opposite to what I am used to. I am not working out really hard though and Dr. H said it was fine that I keep exercising. I keep thinking I need all the blow flow going to my ovaries but honestly think it's better that I get my blood flowing for 30-60 minutes a day then not. And again, it helps keep me sane!