Stims DAY EIGHT

Today was my first not so good day but wasn't phsyical and I am focusing on the fact that things could be FAR worse for us.
I will start with the bad: My meds weren't delivered yesterday!! OMFG!!! So I had a scan today and figured I would not panic and we would see what Dr. H had to say. He called in an RX and it didn't seem like it would be a huge deal. We did have to drive another 20 minutes north (and our clinic is already 45 miles north) but no biggie right? Well when we got to Walgreens things got bad. We were supposed to get 4 Menopur vials and a cartridge of Follistim and it would cost us $3000!! We have some insurance coverage but they didn't take our insurance. I realized we only needed the Menopur so that dropped it to $600, much better. But still I am angry we have to pay OOP because they screwed up. The IVF coordinator on-call spoke with someone at the pharmacy emergency number and said they are going to try to fix this. I hope so! But even if it doesn't, life could be worse right?

On to the good...
Had the can and it looks like we have "at least" 15 on one side and 11 on the other measuring 11-13mm! DH and I disagree which side but I think the 11 is on the right ;)
We upped the Follistim to 350 and we started the Ganirelix tonight! Um prepacked? Um yay!!
Physically today was harder. I woke with heartburn type pain and it's been on an off all day and night. Tums isn't helping :( I am not sure it's the meds but I have never had this before. It might be the antibiotics maybe? Thankkfully we are almost done with those!! I am hoping that's what it is and when I stop them I will feel better.
Exercise was more difficult today. I got more swollen again and worse. I tried using hand weights but I felt like it was making my lower stomach heavier and ached. I don't know... I may have to just start walking now :/ 
I forgot to mention the headache thing has been on an off for days. It's not horrible but annoying and I have faced it is most likely a side effect of the medications instead of a coincidence.The bloat is bothersome but not horrible yet. I do feel heavy around my uterus and oddly enough my pubic area will start aching (??).
So things are going great! I thought I would go fast and have less quality follicles but it looks like my body is baking these eggs well :)
I go back Monday for another scan. We are not sure yet but we are thinking trigger Tuesday or Wednesday and retrieval Thursday or Friday! :)

Stims DAY FOUR

Today was good but i am so tired! Not sure if it's just me or meds but I wanna sleep forever!!
Has my first "night terror" last night. Normally pregnancy does this to me but I have notice meds do it too sometimes. Hopefully it doesn't get much worse but I am not holding my breath!
My boobs are getting more sore as days pass. Last night I spoke too soon and had a small headache and one on an off today. Not too bad though thankfully.
But I am however noticing I am bloated again and this time it's not PMS! When i exercised today I could feel a lot going on in there and it still feels that way! I am curious to see what is going on tomorrow during the u/s because SOMETHING sure it!!! eeek!!

ETA: So I knew it was going to happen- DH handed me the Menopur with a 1.5in needle and I was like, "Uhhh I don't think so!" Took him a second to realize it and then he said I didn't have to insert the whole thing in me :p Jackass.
Also i forgot i was emotional today... But I don't think it's the meds. Something about babies triggered me. I think it was a thread on a forum talking about TTC veterans and many of them were 4 cycles and under. I just burst into tears and thought, "I am just so ready to be done!!!"

Stims DAY TWO

Today was pretty much uneventful. Doesn't mean I can't write a novel though knowing me :p
I have been cramping and bloated all day today but I think it's just AF. I exercised and that didn't even help- that's my cure for cramps normally. But all in all it was another good day! No headache thankfully! I did have BAD insomnia last night though. I figured out it was because i didn;t exercise. I have been exercising hard these last couple weeks knowing I would have to limit myself soon and I think my body is just used to it.
The injections are fine. Menopur didn't sting at all tonight and the Follistim hasn't stung at all. I am however bruising at every injection spot. Makes it look far more dramatic than it feels. So far the stims have gone just as I expected *knock on wood*
I think I am going to start a tip blog for IVF for newbies and on it will be the lesson of today- Find something to pass the time until your first follicle check! I filled up the time before I started the cycle (and figure the 2ww will be hell) but failed to realize that I needed to fill this time too! I should have planned a day trip or something to pass the time. If it wasn't labor Day weekend I would go see my grandmother but I am not driving in this!

All in all I am in good spirits... Any time I start to think about how easy it is for others to get pregnant, I think about all those who can't afford IVF and realize that I may not be the lucky but I am however blessed. I am grateful I can do IVF and I keep that in perspective above everything else.

Ready... Set... GO!

That image is cracking me up! Kinda perfect! But anyway...
I am off the devil pills (BCP) and started our antibiotics today! And the big guns start tomorrow! 150 Menopur and 200 Follistim (and baby aspirin).
I can't believe we are finally here! Honestly I can't believe that I didn't lose my mind in the last couple months! *pats self on back* I really tried not to focus on it... But now it's all I think about obviously and I am ready to get this thing started! Odds are within the next 2 weeks I will be PUPO (pregnant unless proven otherwise)!
So I decided that once I started stims I needed to step back on exercise. I am still going to workout, but keep my heart-rate a lot lower so blood flow goes to my uterus and not my extremities. So I ended up harder workouts today by finishing the C25K ! I am super happy as I have been distracting myself doing the program. It was hard knowing I wouldn't be racing after I finished (I used to run- did a marathon, few HM, 12Ks & 10Ks... ironically have never done a 5K) but I have a larger goal in mind <3
I also celebrated with a veggie burger, fries and a ICY COLD drink! LOL! I am not sure I am going to be able to remember not to drink cold things. I have been trying the last couple of weeks but I honestly forget!
To end the day I am getting a massage and taking a lavender epsom salt bath :)

One month to go....

I start stimulation meds a month from today :)
Exciting!

Dr. H called and told me my cysts are not a problem after looking at my last labs :) Yay!

So I got my protocol sort of (spoke with the Dr H but nothing in writing yet). He said I will be doing the antagonist protocol and then 200 follistim 150 menopur. I am not really getting why the antagonist protocol part though. Why would he do this? I know when i had the bad labs I asked about doing Estrogen priming but since then my labs seem ok now:
FSH 7.4
Prolactin 4.3
TSH 1.56
AMH: 2.2
AFC: 19

I respond really well to clomid (2-7 mature follicles) and ok to femara (2-4 mature follicles). And I read antagonist protocol is for poor responders.

I am going to email him after I research a bunch more. I am one who trusts my Dr. as long as he can give me answers. They seem (him & my coordinator Day) very open to me asking questions and understanding everything going on so I am not afraid to ask... I just wanna feel more confident in *what* I am asking before I do ;)
I would be happy to skip Lupron but I am not sure that's the best for my #s.