PUPO!!

I'm back after a long day!! And still feeling +!  :)
So our transfer wasn't until 3:30pm and that was kind of different but nice not to drive at the crack of dawn and fitting in an acupuncture appointment.
I was runnning late this morning because I laid in bed with the boys for a few minutes, that and I am lazy :p
Headed to accupuncture and it was nice :) Annha is simply awesome. Like usual on transfer day, she didn't charge me and fit me in when I wanted (had to reschedule last night when I finally got my transfer time). Then she told me she would be in the office until 5pm and to call and see if I could make it back for another treatment.
We headed up to Fremont but made a pit stop to pick up my socks that were in the dryer LOL! I bought new socks because the ones from the first transfer have bad mojo IMO ;)

 They are sparkly! I love sparkly! LOL! Dh wasn't thrilled but he obliged anyway :D And now there are sparkles in his shoes so he can think of me!

We stopped on the to the clinic for a bite to eat at one of my favortie vagan places and then DH got lost getting to the clinic :p But we had plenty of time so it wasn;t an issue! Still had time to pick up brownies and veggie tray at Whole Foods for Dr. H.

When i got in they checked my bladder and shocker- too full. Always is! I didn't even try to drink and the darn thing is always full! So I did the whole, "Pee for 15 seconds" aka toture akin to water boarding.

They were running late as we were the last transfer of the day. they did EIGHT retervals and 4 transfers! Poor Dr. H! But he was still as awesome as usual and funny! While waiting I was listening to the music Annha uses and I use to sleep... I kept it on during the transfer because no one seemed to mind and I thought that was neat <3

The littles thawed pretty well. The lower has damage but not much and is at 95% while the upper is at 100%. The nurse also said my linign was the prettiest she has seen in a long time! I told her, "thank you, I made it myself! Oh wat that's a lie... I had the help of drugs." We pretty much cracked jokes the entore time whoch I loved... At one point we were there late so the doors all locked and Dr. H loked himself out of the room. So of course I asked if I should trust him if he can't figure out the door. He replied he didn't actually work yhere and I came back with, "I would hope you would pick a nicer vagina if this a scam!" He blushed and laughed. That's pretty much how it went the entire time with the nurse chiming in giving him greif too.
I am going to try and upload the video of the transfer later... and the chat after. Dr. H said he put us last so he could hang out and chat LOL! I was convincing him that being born in 1979 does not make him a product of the 80s and that sadly the 90s belong to us. It was a funny convo and I think DH got a lot of it on camera. Also he did his traditional baby dance but felt it needed more this time around... Might have that on video- pretty funny! He is such a sweet guy! 

We didn't get out of there until almost 5pm! But it was so pretty as we got some MUCH needed rain today!

When I got out I had a text from Annha asking how it went... Long story short she waited at her office til I got there at 6:20pm! She was off at 5pm!! Is she not AMAZING?!?!? I am SO lucky to have found her! AND she didn't chanrge me again! I convinced her to just put the points in and let me go home so she could go home (she has to drive 40minutes!) even thought she set everything up for me to stay! SO SWEET! She snapped a piture because we both thought it was pretty funny me walking out like this:

I went home and relaxed a bit and then DH pulled the points out. I feel lucky and blessed for so many things and people right now! Did I mention DH is awesome in here? Because he is <3

Stims DAY SIX

I kept trying to write stims day FIVE... It doesn't feel like it's been all that long to be honest. I think because (so far) the process hasn't been as big a deal as I thought it would be *knock on wood*.

So I put on my big girl panties and did my follistim this morning on my own. Hardest thing was getting out of bed to do it :p LOL! Again, not as big a deal as i thought.

I am bloated (not horrible), boobs hurt (again not horrible altho I felt like someone ripped my nipple off when i took my top off tonight LOL!) and slight headache on an off (manageable). I had acupuncture today and it was nice. I HIGHLY recommend it. I do feel like it helps my stress level and honestly overall I have felt FAR warmer this last month. Took me a while to get there tho and I thought it wasn't working. But normally I have at least one "cold night" a week (I will just be cold and summers are worse with air conditioning in public places) and I don't remember the last cold night I had. We even stayed at the beach for 4 nights and I wasn't cold! Amazing!
I took a bath tonight when i started feeling a bit yucky- headache and just not so good. Worked wonderfully. 

Overall things are still going well. I am thankful but I also realize I have really made an effort to try and remain clam and relaxed. I have made that my job right now and I am kicking ass!

My sister got me pregnant.

LOL! Ok so that sounds weird... She went to the IUI with me and kept saying, "I will be saying I was there when you got pregnant!"  <--- dork
Rich had to work so he came before us. When we got there he was leaving and my sister asked why he was there (it's an hour drive btw). I was like uhhhhh????? Are YOU going to give me sperm?! LOL! She was so embarrassed! it never occurred to her! *sigh* I wish i could be that naive again!
She was good company but she was mainly there because she is now seeing my OBGYN and had an appointment later. it worked out well thankfully.

IUI went smoothly :) Did acupuncture this morning too! She is so funny but super sweet. We spoke about positive thoughts and such and things like the power of visualization for achieving your goals. In some ways I think being positive will make me look foolish should it not happen. I also feel like I will be setting myself up for a stronger hurt. So the last 4 cycles or so I have just been so negative. And I know it's not good. it's making me hard. It's also making me depressed. And I can't be like this any longer. Even I am wrong and this doesn't work, at least I tried everything! So I will be more positive :)

While I was at my sister's appointment Dr. Harris called. I had sent a msg freaking out last Friday. He said that the surgery in July is totally fine- no problem. He said to start my BCP CD2 after I do labs. He also said he wasn't worried about my FSH. He likes to see 6-8 but under 10 is fine and he still feels like we will be very successful. That made me feel a lot better but I still feel like it is warning not to screw around. Time is flying and I do not have forever. That level could have been much higher, and then what??

Mid-cycle update

So I took clomid this cycle not knowing about the elevated FSH.
When I was there last Thursday CD8, I had one follie at 12mm. I was worried maybe I would only get one after the crumby test results... I guess you have to prepare for the worst because it looks like I got a decent response! Yay! That one 12mm is now 24mm but I have 3 others trailing behind at 18mm and 16mm. I am not sure those will do anything but at least it something and I have some hope this cycle! That's a change in an of itself! I forgot to ask about lining *doh* but I will be taking Estrogen for 7 days after the IUI. I did the trigger in office today (been doing it at home lately so that was weird) and IUI I am doing tomorrow. Normally I do 36 hr IUI but that has yet to work for me and the one cycle I did get PG was a 24hr IUI. We also BD'd Saturday night and I did pressed JIC for CM issues.
So....
Today CD 12 Trigger
CD13 acupuncture then IUI
CD14-20 Estrongen & progesterone (progesterone continued)

i am trying not to be too hopeful but it's been a long while since I had any hope for any cycle it seems! I pray this is it! I don;t want to have to go through IVF!!! I have never been "that case" or "that woman" who in the ninth inning pulled it off... I hope for once I get to be THAT person!

This is an uphill battle even if I get PG though. I have the polyp that increases my chances of m/c. Scary but my Dr said she would still have tried this cycle.
I got a call on my way to the scan scheduling my surgery for July 8th to remove it.

So if there is no PGY next cycle:
CD3 all bloodwork redone
CD3 start BCP
7/8 surgery

Oh and I started acupuncture last week finally! It was interesting... I believe that it works in a scientific way, I am a vegetarian, homeschooling attachment parent... Yet when she talks about Yin and such, I have to hold back giggles because it all sounds so weird and hokey. But it was relaxing! And I do feel less stress!